Connubial Muse

63 hours...

Thu, 11 May 2006 04:30:40 GMT

63 hours and it seems like 10,000.
I ran across this and found it very fitting:

Alexander Pushkin

Wondrous Moment

The wondrous moment of our meeting . . .
I well remember you appear
Before me like a vision fleeting,
A beauty's angel pure and clear.

In hopeless ennui surrounding
The worldly bustle, to my ear
For long your tender voice kept sounding,
For long in dreams came features dear.

Time passed. Unruly storms confounded
Old dreams, and I from year to year
Forgot how tender you had sounded,
Your heavenly features once so dear.

My backwoods days dragged slow and quiet—
Dull fence around, dark vault above—
Devoid of God and uninspired,
Devoid of tears, of fire, of love.

Sleep from my soul began retreating,
And here you once again appear
Before me like a vision fleeting,
A beauty's angel pure and clear.

In ecstasy the heart is beating,
Old joys for it anew revive;
Inspired and God-filled, it is greeting
The fire, and tears, and love alive.

Tue, 09 May 2006 00:33:45 GMT

Yes, it has been forever since an update... funny how time gets away.
There really haven't been many extra photos from shoots that aren't on www.Redvamp.com 's normal site so I have neglected this site.
But I need to remind myself this wasn't put together just to place photos...

So my update...

I love you so much, and I am missing you terribly.
Every moment that we are apart just drives me insane.

Today has been particularly difficult and I saw you just this morning... but normally I would be home by now, seeing you.
Instead I know there is more time to wait.
I can't even imagine the next minute, hour, day...

It may sound foolish to many to feel so alone so fast, but I don't know of another way to feel.
You are my everything. You are my happiness. You are my soul.
As time goes by I only need you more.

Another Redvamp Kimono Pic...

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 17:08:42 GMT

Sorry it has been a while since I posted. I have several things I am working on it is just taking forever.
Here is another shot of her the kimono by countessa

Enjoy.

Redvamp - Kimono

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 23:05:54 GMT

Here is a little something new.

We shot some photos for countessa / www.crimsonempress.com for some new items she is working on. I must say that these were some really nice items and I suggest checking her merchandise out -and of course purchasing something :)

These were pretty much all shot on white and most were fashion oriented but we did a few outside the fashion pose style for fun that I'll be sharing.

Here is an example from the session. I'll post some other ones later.

We still have a few more items to photograph for Countessa so look for some of those soon.

A few Vacation photos

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 04:06:14 GMT

Posting a second time today - Just a few vacation photos from the end of last month.
This first photo is in the desert as we were going across Utah.
I swear, Utah makes Arizona look like a tropical rainforest!

When we were eating at a small restaurant on Catalina island the first night, our waitress mentioned that my love was a mermaid on the wall of the "Casino" building and that she had admired the mural of her for forever. She told us we needed to check it out, so we did.... Well, even the widows peak is the same.....

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 18:43:39 GMT

When desire, having rejected reason and overpowered judgment which leads to right, is set in the direction of the pleasure which beauty can inspire, and when again under the influence of its kindred desires it is moved with violent motion towards the beauty of corporeal forms, it acquires a surname from this very violent motion, and is called love.

-Socrates

Wolfsheim song...

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 16:40:35 GMT

Just sitting here thinking of my love, listening to Wolfsheim.
Of course, this song always makes me think of her...
If you don' know who Wolfsheim is, go here and take a listen to the snippets:

Lovesong:

wait my dear ... no jealousies
silly thing ... you can't know how I feel

come take my hand I will show you the flame
burning secrets, burning wishes ... your name

don't be insecure, don't be afraid ... I'll hold you tight
oh, virgin weakness, infinite sweetness ... that's you

so let's dance all alone

I want to kiss you, want to feel you deep
your silky skin, a tender touch,
a sign that promises so much
I want to kiss you, want to feel you deep

and so we dance

nothing ever spoils my joy of loving you,
of looking in your eyes ...
I couldn't be that blind
that I won't crave for you

and still we dance all alone

I want to kiss you ...

BW Closeup

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 02:24:50 GMT

I always enjoy B&W photos. This image isn't a paint or charcoal conversion or anything like that, it was done with a posterize filter and then re-converted to greyscale.

I think it turned out quite sexy myself.

This picture shows so clearly that her beauty is so much more than just her hair and hair color. She is gorgeous and perfect from head to toe.

Redvamp - Nurse/Hair

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 18:29:59 GMT

I decided to post this photo because it shows off the length of her hair quite well.
Her hair is incredibly beautiful and extremely sexy.
Plus I have been in a nursing mood lately... soooo beautiful.

Just things: music today

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 01:29:40 GMT

I normally don't really post much outside of talking about Missy or posting photos, but I figured I might begin blogging some about other stuff she and I both like occasionally - Expand the journal a bit. Don't worry there will still be plenty of stuff on her in the weeks and months to come and she is still the focus.... I just feel like rambling. I already write for several technical blogs, etc so I don't need to split into another one :)
Really, this is still about her as well because most of the things that one of us like the other one does as well....

First of all - It looks like Iris will be playing a really small tour soon - I would highly recommend seeing them if they come to a town within driving distance if you like Electronic music at all. Yeah, we didn't know who they were either when we went to see Wolfsheim a few months ago. Iris opened for Wolfsheim and I must say they were really great.

One cool thing about them is that they have optimistic or "nicer" lyrics - as does Wolfsheim for the most part. Don't get me wrong, I still love aggressive angst filled music and have for 20 years now (Tool, Skinny Puppy, old NIN and old Butthole Surfers will always be among my favorite bands), but there is also something great about more positive lyrics. Something is nice when you can let your kids listen to your stuff with you. Weird. Something is nice about wrapping your arms aroud the one you love at a show and hearing this band play.

Anyway, Wolfsheim is even better. All hail Peter Heppner. All hail Markus Reinhardt! But Iris is quite enjoyable and you wouldn't have to fly across the ocean to see them if you are already in the states :)

I love you Missy. Let's go see Iris next month.

"And when you've gone further away I will be calling to you
Send you a line with all i can say so you'll remember me too
and help me believe that we're always safe and perfectly sound
anytime that I'm not around..." - Iris

Another RED picture (Redvamp)

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 00:50:13 GMT

Here is another one from the red satin shoot.
Very, very sexy - almost to sexy to post.
Makes my mind wander.

I could look at this photo non-stop for hours.

Another of the only in red cloth photos... (Redvamp )

Sat, 26 Jun 2004 23:53:49 GMT

Here is another one from last weekend.
There are so many of these that I like - she looks so stunning.
She has such a sexy back. Actually, she has a sexy everything!
I'll be posting another new pic soon.

New Photos - RedVamp in red heels

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 02:26:18 GMT

Finally!

At last We had a chance this past weekend to take some new photos. These are simple in concept - just my beautiful goddess wearing only sexy high red heels and then strategically wrapped in silk fabric. There is no background to distract. The focus is all on her - as it should be.

I have several more in different poses that I will be posting soon. Just so you know - there are photos that are even sexier than the ones I will be posting - but those are just for me!

There are many benefits to having her as my love. :)

Enjoy.

When will there be new photos?

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 18:05:15 GMT

I know that on the old journal/blog location a few weeks I mentioned Missy and I would be doing a lot of sessions real soon. We have had several planned but for one reason or another they have been delayed. We won't be able to do any this weekend - but hopefully over some of the following weekends we will.

In the meantime I'll dig through some of the older sessions and see if there is anything that's not on a website out there that is different...

She posted some of her newer fan art to her page if you haven't seen it already. I'll post some new pics as soon as I have them. Believe me, I am really anxious to do some new shots... I love watching her pose up close and personal like - very much a mental turn-on. I can't wait.

Schoolgirl Goddess (redvamp)

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 01:40:57 GMT

She is simply delicious... No other way to describe how she looks.
There are similar shots to this one on the redvamp.com site, I just happen to enjoy
this one a lot. She takes my breath away.

Is there such a thing as having too much desire for your spouse?

A different look (redvamp)

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 01:40:14 GMT

Here is a very soft and sexy photo we did quite a while back. This is much softer and more intimate both in clothing and in lighting than most of the photos have been. She is so beautiful in so many ways and looks absolutely stunning in everything she wears.

She really doesn't realize how deep her beauty goes and how incredibly gorgeous she really is - which amazes me every day. She is perfection in every way. Everything about her is EXACTLY what I am attracted to - EVERYTHING!

The 2 Poems

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 01:08:52 GMT

An English poem for her:

Every moment she's not wrapped around me
Is a misery too painful to survive
She is my love, my goddess, my reason
To please her brings my own soul to life

Feel death and rebirth with each pleasurable shift
Lost between her breath and her cries
Helpless and vulnerable controlled by her fire
Hypnotized by the power she hides

All I desire is for her to consume me
To suffocate in her pale white skin
To die in her ecstasy while caught in her web
And to erupt back to the living again

and a German, I am quite certain that this is very likely a horribly butchered piece... but here is something I wrote for my love. I hope she appreciates the attempt in all its faint resemblance to the German language. My apologies in advance to those who actually speak or read German well. :)

Sie ist:

mein Traum
mein jeder Gedanke
mein Wunsch
mein Herz wurde unterrichtet

meine Stärke
mein Wille zum zu sein
meine Liebe
mein exctasy

meine Wärme
meine eine Sache zutreffend
mein Wunsch
meine Seele für Sie

Gothabilly (redvamp)

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 01:06:41 GMT

Here's a picture from a gothabilly shoot we did a while back. I love her when she's all shiny!

B&W Nurse (redvamp)

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 00:47:35 GMT

Not sure why this one never went to the website. I am simply captivated by how this photo turned out. Plus I can't help but to focus on that zipper...
I've done several posts today, not sure how the pace will always be - but today was fun. I am so in love with her!

Bending Devil

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 00:07:39 GMT

This is from a session we did a while back. It was never posted to her site. I'm not crazy about the lighting and the angle isn't exactly what I wanted, but I LOVE how she is standing/posing. Something about it makes my motor run...

Not a day goes by that I don't marvel at how beautiful she is.

The purpose is... my muse!

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 23:59:44 GMT

First things first... moving my old pictures and posts to their new home.

I currently have a few blogs/journals in which I write about things related to my work. I decided I needed one that was more important. I needed one dedicated to my muse.

I need to glorify her.
I need to praise her.

She makes me desire things I never knew could even be desired.
She makes me feel things I never knew could even be felt.
She is my goddess.
She inspires me every day and since I first saw her she has been my single reason for living.

This blog will be all about her.
Pictures of her.
My thoughts on her.
Things I write for and about her and how I am in love with her.
As time goes on, you will understand why...

For my goddess... my wife.

New Home for ConnubialMuse

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 23:57:39 GMT

OK.

I am moving my blog about my beautiful wife and soul mate from connubialmuse.blogspot.com to livejournal...

I like the old location just fine, it's just more community friendly here and I think it might be best to keep the 2 on the same site. Plus it makes it easier for me to keep up with the other blogs I frequent.

I'll keep using blogspot for my technical work related blogs...